I DON'T FUCKING CARE.
Everyone's up here posting Facebook statuses about how it's the last repetitive date and just, stahp. So guise, calm your tits. This isn't tragic. No one's gonna die and I think everyone should just chill the fuck out.
Vintage Romance
Wednesday 12 December 2012
Tuesday 11 December 2012
Public Display
So I went out today (I know, I went out) and I swear to god, I saw Dean like, 15 feet away from me and he didn't see me which was good because I didn't want him to.
If you don't know who Dean is, back the fuck up because I think I mentioned him in my either my first, second or third post on this website. Don't worry, it's only like, 2 pages back.
Anyway, he was with this girl and his brother and I just panicked because I don't want him seeing me and coming over to talk to me. I would be obliged to actually talk to him and just, no.
Please note that I am not jealous. I broke up with him. Not the other way around. Plus, that was months ago. Even though I have to admit, he has moved on fast. Having 2 girlfriends after our break up. Um, okay Dean. Okay.
Anyway, I went shopping with my mom and I just bought a ton of things and I'm so happy. I practically have a whole new wardrobe which makes me very happy because I love fashion, and the stuff in my closet has been there for almost 2 years and I just needed a change. And there was this gorgeous top at Forever 21 and you just should've seen how happy I was when I found my size. (S, because I'm 15 and I haven't stopped growing yet. Well, I hope I'm still growing. Otherwise, I would be freakishly small).
And then my mom and I went back home and we cleared out my closet to give some clothes to charity and I just feel so happy. You know what would make me more happy? IF EMMA DIDN'T TELL RORY SHIT ABOUT MY CRUSH ON HIM. That's right, I'm not over it yet. Still not talking to her. He's still not talking to me.
Anyway, I watched Rise Of The Guardians the other day and warning as a spoiler alert is ahead.
OH MY GOD I CRIED LIKE, 3 TIMES WHEN SANDMAN DIED IT WAS LIKE A PART OF ME DIED I HAD SO MANY FEELINGS AND I TOTALLY SHIP THE TOOTH FAIRY AND JACK FROST.
Okay, have a nice holiday guise. I'll be back.
If you don't know who Dean is, back the fuck up because I think I mentioned him in my either my first, second or third post on this website. Don't worry, it's only like, 2 pages back.
Anyway, he was with this girl and his brother and I just panicked because I don't want him seeing me and coming over to talk to me. I would be obliged to actually talk to him and just, no.
Please note that I am not jealous. I broke up with him. Not the other way around. Plus, that was months ago. Even though I have to admit, he has moved on fast. Having 2 girlfriends after our break up. Um, okay Dean. Okay.
Anyway, I went shopping with my mom and I just bought a ton of things and I'm so happy. I practically have a whole new wardrobe which makes me very happy because I love fashion, and the stuff in my closet has been there for almost 2 years and I just needed a change. And there was this gorgeous top at Forever 21 and you just should've seen how happy I was when I found my size. (S, because I'm 15 and I haven't stopped growing yet. Well, I hope I'm still growing. Otherwise, I would be freakishly small).
And then my mom and I went back home and we cleared out my closet to give some clothes to charity and I just feel so happy. You know what would make me more happy? IF EMMA DIDN'T TELL RORY SHIT ABOUT MY CRUSH ON HIM. That's right, I'm not over it yet. Still not talking to her. He's still not talking to me.
Anyway, I watched Rise Of The Guardians the other day and warning as a spoiler alert is ahead.
OH MY GOD I CRIED LIKE, 3 TIMES WHEN SANDMAN DIED IT WAS LIKE A PART OF ME DIED I HAD SO MANY FEELINGS AND I TOTALLY SHIP THE TOOTH FAIRY AND JACK FROST.
Okay, have a nice holiday guise. I'll be back.
Wednesday 5 December 2012
Not Like The Other
I hate that I'm not photogenic. I have to take at least 15 pictures to get a picture of me that actually looks decent. My mom has the same problem. But my sister on the other hand..
She never has an embarrassing picture. She's so photogenic, it's annoying. She has so little imperfections compared to me. I have a flat nose, an ugly forehead and freckles just everywhere on my face. I have the ugliest feet ever and my voice is just annoying. I know you should love yourself for who you are but how do you love yourself when you look..ugly?
At least I know the fact that Rory used to like me. For me.
But getting back on the topic, it's hard. It really is. When you have the most beautiful sister and you're just there but you're not really there. It sucks. I'm not photogenic, I'm not pretty, I'm not what society wants.
And it's not a nice thing to carry on you.
She never has an embarrassing picture. She's so photogenic, it's annoying. She has so little imperfections compared to me. I have a flat nose, an ugly forehead and freckles just everywhere on my face. I have the ugliest feet ever and my voice is just annoying. I know you should love yourself for who you are but how do you love yourself when you look..ugly?
At least I know the fact that Rory used to like me. For me.
But getting back on the topic, it's hard. It really is. When you have the most beautiful sister and you're just there but you're not really there. It sucks. I'm not photogenic, I'm not pretty, I'm not what society wants.
And it's not a nice thing to carry on you.
Monday 3 December 2012
Yay, New Profile Picture
As you all know, I have a new profile picture. It's of hair. That's right, hair. It's really pretty hair braided into a dutch braid with flowers in it. And sadly, it's not me. I saw that picture on tumblr and decided it was so pretty that I had to make it my profile picture.
And again, it's not me. It's just a random lady with her hair braided into a really pretty dutch braid wearing what seems to be a wedding dress. I don't know. It just looks like it. Anyways, hope you guys like it as much as I do.
And again, it's not me. It's just a random lady with her hair braided into a really pretty dutch braid wearing what seems to be a wedding dress. I don't know. It just looks like it. Anyways, hope you guys like it as much as I do.
Minds Change Like The Weather, Guise.
Well haven't I been on hiatus?
Screw Oliver. He's being such an ass! And he's only being an ass to me. Just, ugh.
I have a little crush on this guy named Rory. He's really sweet and funny and it's just a little crush. At least that's what I keep telling myself. I asked my friend, Emma, to talk to him for me. Y'know, butter me up. I know, I need a lot of help. No judging.
I got Emma's facebook password and I read her conversation with Rory and what she said just, infuriated me. She practically told him I had a crush on him! Like, what? She was like, "This guy she has a crush on likes Emma Stone and Spiderman and Batman or something." and he said that he likes all those things but he kept denying that I had a little crush on him. But Emma just went overboard. She told him the thing that he said to me that made me feel so happy, I jumped around the house because what he said was so sweet. So obviously, he knows it's him whom I like.
So now, Rory knows I have a crush on him and I feel like killing myself. If he tells anybody about this, my life will be ruined. Because Rory isn't the kind of guy girls like. He's funny and all but the girls at my school don't find him attractive. Well that's bullshit, he's plenty attractive. But I guess it's good for me. I mean, no competition. Anyways, if they find out, I will be teased to no end and just, I won't be able to live it down.
And it's not cool for a friend to tell your crush you like him, Emma. It really isn't.
Getting back to what Rory responded, he said that he didn't like me like that. Just as a friend. So I'm pretty sure I just got friendzoned. I think I'm the first female to get friendzoned.
He said that he's no good for me and I guess he was thinking about his crush on me earlier this year because, I don't know, it just looked like it from the chat. Yes, I can predict what people are thinking about by their replies. And he said he would make a bad boyfriend. Well, let's see how you do by trying it out on me!
I know it wasn't cool to login to Emma's facebook like that but I had to know what she said. I really did! And now that I know, I can begin my six degrees of separation (but seriously though, have you guys heard that song? It is perfection. It's by the script. Another song that I can relate to is 'The Moment I Knew' by Taylor Swift. And Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Heart's Club Band by The Beatles. We're getting off topic now. Well, at least I am).
To quote Avatar Roku (because I am ridiculously in love with A:tla):
When love is real, it finds a way.
And I totally believe that. Can you believe it? A cartoon show gives better advice than most shows nowadays. But it's true. At least I think it is.
So now, I'm giving Emma the silent treatment because she was an ass but she doesn't know that. But I'll forgive her one day. Just not today. Because I'm too busy being sad about Rory. And the thing is, he used to have a crush on me. But I just thought of him as a friend that time. And now I like him. But he doesn't like me. And now I hate myself. And now Oliver doesn't know shit about this. But we're drifting away and it's like he doesn't know I exist anymore. He's not talking or texting or calling like he did the last time.
Well, Rory and I will be in the same school next year because I'll be in high school and he's already in high school (he's 2 years my senior, guise) so we'll basically see each other everyday and I'm afraid I'll like him even more and mess up my plan on moving on (not that I actually have a plan. But I will have a plan. Soon) because he has the cutest eyes ever and his new haircut is just so cute and just, ugh. He's really funny too and he's so goddamned sweet and he's such a gentleman and I'm gonna stop gushing over him before I explode.
And Oliver, well, screw him. We were never really together anyway and now he's ignoring me and giving me the cold shoulder and just basically avoiding me. And I didn't do shit. Anyway, Oliver brought this on himself and now Rory is my little crush.
Screw Oliver. He's being such an ass! And he's only being an ass to me. Just, ugh.
I have a little crush on this guy named Rory. He's really sweet and funny and it's just a little crush. At least that's what I keep telling myself. I asked my friend, Emma, to talk to him for me. Y'know, butter me up. I know, I need a lot of help. No judging.
I got Emma's facebook password and I read her conversation with Rory and what she said just, infuriated me. She practically told him I had a crush on him! Like, what? She was like, "This guy she has a crush on likes Emma Stone and Spiderman and Batman or something." and he said that he likes all those things but he kept denying that I had a little crush on him. But Emma just went overboard. She told him the thing that he said to me that made me feel so happy, I jumped around the house because what he said was so sweet. So obviously, he knows it's him whom I like.
So now, Rory knows I have a crush on him and I feel like killing myself. If he tells anybody about this, my life will be ruined. Because Rory isn't the kind of guy girls like. He's funny and all but the girls at my school don't find him attractive. Well that's bullshit, he's plenty attractive. But I guess it's good for me. I mean, no competition. Anyways, if they find out, I will be teased to no end and just, I won't be able to live it down.
And it's not cool for a friend to tell your crush you like him, Emma. It really isn't.
Getting back to what Rory responded, he said that he didn't like me like that. Just as a friend. So I'm pretty sure I just got friendzoned. I think I'm the first female to get friendzoned.
He said that he's no good for me and I guess he was thinking about his crush on me earlier this year because, I don't know, it just looked like it from the chat. Yes, I can predict what people are thinking about by their replies. And he said he would make a bad boyfriend. Well, let's see how you do by trying it out on me!
I know it wasn't cool to login to Emma's facebook like that but I had to know what she said. I really did! And now that I know, I can begin my six degrees of separation (but seriously though, have you guys heard that song? It is perfection. It's by the script. Another song that I can relate to is 'The Moment I Knew' by Taylor Swift. And Sgt. Pepper's Lonely Heart's Club Band by The Beatles. We're getting off topic now. Well, at least I am).
To quote Avatar Roku (because I am ridiculously in love with A:tla):
When love is real, it finds a way.
And I totally believe that. Can you believe it? A cartoon show gives better advice than most shows nowadays. But it's true. At least I think it is.
So now, I'm giving Emma the silent treatment because she was an ass but she doesn't know that. But I'll forgive her one day. Just not today. Because I'm too busy being sad about Rory. And the thing is, he used to have a crush on me. But I just thought of him as a friend that time. And now I like him. But he doesn't like me. And now I hate myself. And now Oliver doesn't know shit about this. But we're drifting away and it's like he doesn't know I exist anymore. He's not talking or texting or calling like he did the last time.
Well, Rory and I will be in the same school next year because I'll be in high school and he's already in high school (he's 2 years my senior, guise) so we'll basically see each other everyday and I'm afraid I'll like him even more and mess up my plan on moving on (not that I actually have a plan. But I will have a plan. Soon) because he has the cutest eyes ever and his new haircut is just so cute and just, ugh. He's really funny too and he's so goddamned sweet and he's such a gentleman and I'm gonna stop gushing over him before I explode.
And Oliver, well, screw him. We were never really together anyway and now he's ignoring me and giving me the cold shoulder and just basically avoiding me. And I didn't do shit. Anyway, Oliver brought this on himself and now Rory is my little crush.
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